Words? Is that all they are? Or is there maybe something more? In Proverbs it tells us the tongue holds the power of life and death. You see this all the time in our day to day lives. Bottom line is we have to face circumstances out of our control and many times how we respond determines our outcome, not the circumstances themselves. Our words have so much power; the power to build up, the power to destroy, or the power to do nothing at all. Sometimes we’re just too scared to say anything at all, whether it’s right or wrong. Too often it’s not the words we said but the ones we didn’t that speak the loudest. If we know of an injustice but decline to speak out against it, does that actually make us any less responsible? Time and time again we hold these words and feelings inside ourselves because we’re too afraid of what somebody may think, we don’t want to be judged. But sometimes, we just don’t want to recognize the way that some things are. We think that if we say nothing, we can pretend that these things aren’t real, that the problems don’t exist. But really, all it does is separate us from making anything better. Sometimes the words we never said speak so much more about us than the ones that were said.
I remember sitting down at one point and just thinking to myself, “Why?” I took a step back from what I was doing and just looked inside myself. I kept thinking, “Why? Why am I doing this? Why am I making music? You know, you can do so many things in life and some of those things will make a difference and some of them won’t. But at the end of the day, it’s not exactly what you do, but why you do it that matters. It’s the heart behind something that gives it life. I quickly found myself asking why to everything I was doing, everything that I was about, & everything that I claimed to be. And as I asked myself these questions I found myself learning things about myself that I never even realized. But what I did realize, is that I was holding myself back. Everything that I was trying to do for other people, everything that I was trying to do for God, was keeping me from what God was wanting to do inside of me. I was doing so many things that people loved but I couldn’t enjoy it because there were still things that were eating me up on the inside. I was more heroic on the outside than I was whole on the inside and for too long I chose to say, to do nothing about it. They always say admitting you have a problem is the first step to recovery but why is that? I think our words enable us to be transparent with ourselves in a way that we can’t otherwise. It’s like whenever we go to God, He already knows everything but it isn’t for His sake that we open our mouths to Him, but it’s for our sake that we recognize what’s truly inside of us, what’s in our hearts. How do we expect to be real with God whenever we can’t even be real with ourselves? How do we expect to tell God what we need whenever we can’t even tell ourselves what we need?
I don’t want people to be real with just themselves, I want them to be real with others too. I want them to speak out on how they feel, not out of hatred or bitterness, but out of love, compassion, and understanding. I see all the things that are wrong with this world and I think, what if we would speak out against these things and stop playing it safe. Yeah you may say something stupid at some point but hey guess what, me too. We’re all human here. You look at any historical movement and they all started the same way, somebody was willing to speak up where others wouldn’t and I think that’s where we are today. There’s so many things that we just brush off in society today but silence doesn’t equal innocence, & ignorance isn’t an excuse, We’re called to do more and to be more.
If you could take away anything from this album it would be to speak. End the silence and just speak. God wants to make a change in us, not around us. I encourage to be real with yourself, and to be real with others. My prayer and my heart is that in some way one of these songs will inspire you like God has inspired me in the way that when you hear the words I have to say, that you can relate, that you’ll wanna open up to yourself, to others, maybe God, and to just end the silence by realizing that your words have the power to change your life if you let them. Sometimes what you don’t say, is a lot harder than what you do.